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Hello loved ones, near and far~
It is with a heavy, yet hopeful, spirit that I tell you the Kitsap County Prosecutor's Office has filed charges against the driver of the Yukon that killed our sweet Enzo. http://www.kitsapsun.com/news/2011/feb/08/kitsap-prosecutors-file-charge-in-crash-that/
My spirit is hopeful that the Lord will use this to bring justice as well as to ensure it doesn't happen to another family. I am also hopeful, as I pray for the driver being charged, that he will be broken before the Lord and his soul will find peace and forgiveness in our wonderful savior, Jesus.
But, needless to say, my spirit is also heavy as we begin to re-live the nightmare of that time. No doubt it will be difficult as Todd and Kate possibly testify about what transpired. It will be difficult for the rest of our family who are present at any court proceedings.
Just the other day, as I (Zo's Auntie Melissa) scrap-booked 2010 for my family, I cried as I made the pages related to the accident and memorial service. In many ways, as I live 1500 miles away, my life has "moved on" in the sense that I am back to all my normal activities and have many distractions from the all-consuming pain my sister suffers - but being reminded of the pain my heart still holds - and will always hold - was enough to bring me to my knees yet again, asking God, "why?" My questions are not angry, but they simply express what my heart feels and what I cannot, in my limited human mind, understand yet.
God is good. ALL the time. Yes, our family still proclaims this. It's been four months since Enzo went to be with Jesus, and perhaps we continue to proclaim this to keep ourselves from going mad. But we know it's true. God is good - ALL the time. How can we say this still, after all we've been through? Let me ask this: where else would we go? What else would be sufficient for us to turn to? Abraham Lincoln, during the Civil War, said "I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go. My own wisdom and that of all about me seemed insufficient for the day." There simply is nowhere else to go that can bring the peace we so desperately need. God is good. ALL the time.
Please keep Sidney Wright (driver) in your prayers. Yes, he was texting and had drugs in his blood. And their family is suffering for it too. And I bet you a million dollars he wishes he wouldn't have done those things. Let's pray that he would know what it means to be forgiven by Christ, as he faces the consequences of his actions, and that he would be a changed man through all of this.
I know that God took each of us through every event in our lives to prepare us for this time. That we have faith to rely on, faith in a just and merciful God who promises never to leave or forsake us. That we have it down. Oh no. I thank Him every day that I have to continually rely on Him to "refill" my mercy account as nearly every day I run it dry!!
ReplyDeleteAmen! These past 4 months have seem like an eternity to me and I'm just an auntie. God IS good all the time and He has continued to comfort those mourning and hurting. Great words, sister!
ReplyDeleteThe comment below absolutely breaks my heart and thank you melissa for writing it. As always God speaks through you.
ReplyDelete"Please keep Sidney Wright (driver) in your prayers. Yes, he was texting and had drugs in his blood. And their family is suffering for it too. And I bet you a million dollars he wishes he wouldn't have done those things"
It's me the wife again I wish someone could pry me away from the computer and this blog, but like you and kaitlin I have been glued to this entire process. The sad part is my husband doesn't have the faith that I have that God has a plan with all he does, and that somehow we will all learn and grow from this. I have fought the urge to get online and blast people in a very flesh mannered way, and have gone to my knees in prayer asking my father for stregnth. It's like no one cares that we have been affected to. Certainly this does not take away the pain your family feels, I know that. I also know that he and my children have suffered mightily, and I know that you know what incarceration of the soul is. That is where he is at. No one can understand what it's like for my children to try to make sense of this, and to still interact with their dad. He might as well already be incarcerated, I dont know if this is gods plan. Do I hope he doesnt spend the rest of his life in jail........Yes! I love him just the way he is, unconditionally as my father up above taught me to love him, the day I accepted him as my husband in christ. I think he needs help, and certainly something must be done to make sure that justice is served. I just don't know what that is, and neither does anyone else and they presume in their comments they make to know what way that the poeple of this earth, and god should judge him. It is all so tragic, and i dont know what i am supposed to do. I dont know how to raise my sons alone, I dont know how to help anyone right now. Not your family, not my family. I do know how to get up everyday and thank the lord for it, and ask hime for guidance in all that i do. I know how to live a life of recovery, and I know how to be a student, and try to be a good wife, daughter, and friend. I dont know how to do this...
My husband truly is a wonderful man, he would never have done something like this with intent, and i still believe it was an accident. When I am speaking with my lord he tells me to worry not, and fear not, for he is with me he has never, nor would he ever forsake or mislead me.
I hope your family can see him, as a person, as a person who has to live the rest of his life explaining his choices to everyone, and to his children, as a person who loves kids, and who has so much remorse, and compassion for you all. But also as a person who needs love, and encouragemnt, and compassion himself. I am not saying he was in the right, in the wrong........it's truly not my place. But as I said to you at the funeral I don't believe he deserves "to rot in jail" the way some say, or to "be shot" or "be killed" himself. These people are very vicious I will pray for them to open their eyes and see both families not just the circumstances. I pray for this right now father becuase their words frighten my children, and me sometimes. I pray for all of us, as we go through this. I pray that Todd and Kaitlin have thier day, I pray that everyone involved is heard, and I pray that God be the overseer of it all. More than that I pray for all of the children that are involved in this not just little Zo who has kept me up many nights.
I just pray, and pray becuase i dont know what i am supposed to do Melissa. I just dont know....
Mrs. Wright, my family will pray for your family and that you ALL will experience the only kind of forgiveness that matters - God's forgiveness. We will pray that you will ALL be able to get through the cruelty of the world and find true comfort and protection in the arms of the Lord. We will pray that Mr. Wright will be a changed man as he experiences God's love and forgiveness through these difficult times.
ReplyDeleteI do not know if your husband has accepted the free gift of God's love, forgiveness and salvation for his whole life yet, but we will pray mightily that he does and that one day he will be able to look back and give a testimony that through the death of an innocent infant named Enzo and an innocent Man named Jesus, your husband now has eternal life. In fact, we will pray that prayer for your whole family. God can turn tragedies into triumphs.
We will pray that your children will be strong in spirit and character and they will know for certain that while God's ways are not our ways, His ways are infinitely better.
Finally, we will pray for you dear Mrs. Wright, that you find comfort and strength you know you do not possess on your own. And pray that if you don't have a current good church home and church family, God leads you to one immediately. As one wife to another, I can only imagine what you are going through right now and I promise I will pray for you everything I would hope my church family would pray for me.
My life struggles seem so small compared to what you have to be going through right now, but I remember how many times God used our church family to help us get through our challenges.
One of my life verses has been starting in Jeremiah 29:11 - "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity..."
We ALL deserve to "rot in jail" for our sins, we ALL deserve to have hatred hurled at our faces because of our sins, but Jesus has paid the price for them all and freely gives us love and leads us out of jail if we will trust in Him.
Dear Mrs. Wright, I know you are calling and seeking the Lord with all your heart right now. I'm just a mortal and I can hear you clear over here in NM, so you take comfort that the Lord God our Creator can hear you from heaven and give you and your family HOPE and a FUTURE and bring you back from captivity of any type. He's done it for me and I know He can do it for you and your boys and your husband as well.
I pray that your whole family will stay glued to your Bible. I've discovered that if I pray and ask God to help me understand what He is saying as I read His Word, He is always faithful to give me that understanding. I will pray that you will discover that the Bible contains everything you need right now in this crisis and throughout your life.
In Love, Because He First Loved Us,
Judith - I could not have said it better myself. Thank you for your encouragement not only to Mrs. Wright but to ANYONE who will read these comments! I loved your line "an innocent infant named Enzo and an innocent man named Jesus" - absolutely beautiful words. And that is what I, too, will pray for Mr. Wright.
ReplyDeleteMrs. Wright - I had the same thoughts running through my head after reading your comments - that we all deserve to rot in jail for our sins, no matter what they are. Praise Jesus for his indescribably gift! Please know that people's unkind and harsh comments are not the heart of the Lord - and they will have to answer to HIM for those. There are countless people out there who are praying for your family, and who have Christ's heart for you, just as they are praying for ours.